THE CYCLE RETURNS


As u can see wut happened during january last year... well this year is better abit but just about an hour ago... i almost got into a depression state again... but thanks to a fren of mine... thanks again. but this is really bothering me... i dont know why... maybe till the day i get to do wut i wanna do even tho its sucked i will still be a happy man coz i know i had tried... but till now i still havent fufill wut i am set to do. my plans since high skool had just gone haywired. everything i planned... all the enthusiasm have just gone like this... this is really a cruel world. they just manage to f*ck u up day in day out. i know there are ppl worst off then me... but i just love to bitch around. i just cant get out of this cycle. it is this that is causing my deteriorating health...... hhehe joking la. still healthy... but i am afraid if this goes on long term sooner or later i will really cause harm to me. well the picture describes all. although its not a masterpiece but this is wut is runnin in my head now... i am facing a long n huge nothing... and at the end of it.... a jagged hill which i know i have to climb it soon after the huge nothing.... i am just lost... just a whole plain huuuuge grass field around me. surrounded by jagged mountains at the horizon....

"The statistics on sanity are that one out of every four person are suffering from some form of mental illness. Think of your three best friends. If they're okay, then it's you."

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