Tuesday, January 26, 2010


So sorry for the long lapse since my last blog... for I have lost a huge piece of my life...

On the 21st of Jan the world has lost one of its angel to heaven. Exactly 3.09am my father Kok Sin Fee passed away peacefully. After a month of in and out of hospital my father lost his battle with lung cancer. I have to say the pain, me and my family went through was indescribable. No words can even explain the pain and agony that we are going through. I am really grateful for everyone that gave a helping hand and those that sent their condolences. What I am going to write here is not about how he passed away but on how he has lived his life...

This was my eulogy I gave when I was at my father's funeral.

"I keep on looking at that coffin and I still cant believe that my papa is in there. I am really grateful to have lived with a great man like my father. How great is my father? If I were to tell you how great he was, you all have to sit here for 28 years coz every minute of my life has my father's name written all over it. To me he is not only a great father, husband, brother or a friend but to me he is our angel. Guarding and guiding us all the way.

Let me tell you the things he did for me. He would take his time to spend with me and my sister everyday after work. He would sit down and ask me how was school. He would play and make sure I will be happy and comfortable. I remember back in school when I was to go for my school camp, two weeks before he would ask me to start packing my bag. I would linger and wait and slack. Till 2 days before my camp I didn't even packed yet. The next morning when I wake up I would see two small bags filled with toiletries like tooth brush, those traveling tooth paste, mini soaps, mini shampoo, pen knife, medicated oil all in that bag. My dad would pack all of them just in case i forgotten them. Thats how detailed and dedicated he was to me.

My sister would watch the tv and saw a McD's ad where there is a collectible promotion going on. He would see my sis so excited about it that he basically lined up almost every week to get my sis one piece of the collection. My sis would say no need but he will say "On the way from my office only ma" No words spoken but just action made. You wouldn't get anymore dedication than that.

Why I said that my father is an angel? it is because he has a heart of gold. Why? Let me tell you a story... he used to work in the heart
of KL at the Bangkok Bank building. Knowing there are alot of nice coffee shop around there. He would usually go to anyone of the coffee shop to have his fav dish. All the workers at the shop knows my dad so well that they call him a gentle giant. As normal coffee shops in KL during lunch time would be packed with people and as usual there will be old ladies or alcoholic begging for money to buy food. Instead of giving them money and ask them to go off... my dad will instead pull out the chair and ask them to sit down and he will ask what they wanted to eat... go order and he will pay for them... not once but everytime if they come across him.... Thats just one of the small things he has done. Taken advantage? thats what most people think but he said that he did it from his heart. Some people like to splurge tens of thousands to a charity foundation. Some would like to brag about how much he helped the needy.. but not my dad. He would always be the first to offer his help, not only monetary wise but also physically and never even said a word about it. For most people this small things may be insignificant but to the people my dad touched... it meant the world. It is all this little things that piled up to be a mountain. He always thought me this "what we have and people don't have... share it with them".

He thought me so many things for instance when I just started work and he see me struggling with my new job... I was down and sad. He
would call me and ask me come to his room. Then he told me this Cantonese lines "yan yat si, fung pheng wong cheng... yung yat phou, hoi fut thin hung". Which directly translated as "be patient, all peaceful n calm... give way, the sky is open". I've been living with this line ever since not only at work but also in life.

My father would always try to make us laugh. For instance few months back when I was watching football with him. He suddenly turn to me and ask me "Why Gorilla got big nose?" I would look at him in amazement then he will say "because they got big fingers..." . He would crack me up every time. That is one thing i miss him most too...

As I got home after the day he left us I realised that everything in my house has my father's touch imprinted on it. All the little things he did around the house that we didn't noticed and now that he is gone... we all miss it so much... the smell of his fresh coffee, the cleaned car and so many more....

I am pretty sure most of you that managed to cross path with him would have nothing bad to say about him either as he is one of the most selfless, dedicated, funny and detailed man i've ever met. I really miss him so much, I really love him so much... Even till his very last breath he was still trying to make us happy.... he stopped breathing at 3am but his heart was still beating... my sis and I was calling him to breath.. breath... cmon breath.... he took one last breath 3 minutes later.... for us.... for us........ It was then we knew it was it.... my papa has left us to embark on a new journey....

Right now in this very moment let us all make a promise that since my papa has shared so much light with us... lets make a promise to pass on the ligh
t and brightness to the people around us. Lets not let what my dad believe in goes to waste. For me... from today onwards I make a promise to my dad that I wont make the people around me feel uncomfortable... I wont make them cry unless its tears of joy... I shall be the light in the time of darkness... the tears that I am shedding now will be the last tears for my dad as of now we are going to smile and celebrate the life of one of the noblest man we've ever met. Me and my family are thankful that we have the privilege to be showered with love by an angel sent by GOD himself... for that I thank you all......."

Papa we will miss you dearly....

My dad's favourite song....

I know I am not an Avril Lavigne fan but this song truly spelled the words I am feeling now...

Sunday, January 17, 2010


I think its time for all of us to stand up and start being counted. We have to put aside religion and race and be as one. We have to unite and be strong to bring everyone together... good is still not dead.... yet......

Don't know why suddenly I just have this surge..... especially when I read about the recent Church burning case and the Haiti earthquake... are we humans just so stupid to just look at petty things such as money and power? Just look at the Tsunami in 2004... suddenly our country stood up together as ONE and helped... and not only our country but the world. Everyone put aside their differences and came as HUMANS to help each other. I recently read about aMalaysian convoy that headed to Palestine to provide help. Personally i think they are really brave to head to a troubled country, all in the name of humanity.

If all human put more focus on humanity instead of chasing the power and wealth that wont carry to our graves... the world would be a better place by focusing on helping and giving to each other. Here are a few songs that I've compiled and I think most of us have to watch and listen.... enjoy...

Malaysian Artistes United - Here in my HOME

BEP - Where is the Love

All Star Tribute - Whats going on

U2 n Green Day - The Saints are Coming

Football stars - Live for Love United

and last but not least.... the most famous one of all.... from MJ himself...

All Stars - We are the World

Hope this inspires you all.....

“I believe in God, but not as one thing, not as an old man in the sky. I believe that what people call God is something in all of us. I believe that what Jesus and Mohammed and Buddha and all the rest said was right. It's just that the translations have gone wrong.” -John Lennon-

Friday, January 15, 2010


The idiotic beauty of English!
Found that this write-up absolutely BRILLIANT!!
For those who speak English well, you will find it amusing.
For those who don't, then this is an eye-opener!

Can you read these right for the first time?

1. The bandage was wound around the wound.
2. The farm was used to produce produce.
3. The dump was so full that it had to refuse more refuse.
4. We must polish the Polish furniture.
5. He could lead if he would get the lead out.
6. The soldier decided to desert his dessert in the desert.
7. Since there is no time like the present, he thought it was time to present the present.
8. A bass was painted on the head of the bass drum.
9. When shot at, the dove dove into the bushes.
10. I did not object to the object.
11. The insurance was invalid for the invalid.
12. There was a row among the oarsmen about how to row.
13. They were too close to the door to close it.
14. The buck does funny things when the does are present.
15. A seamstress and a sewer fell down into a sewer line.
16. To help with planting, the farmer taught his sow to sow.
17. The wind was so strong to wind the sail.
18. Upon seeing the tear in the painting I shed a tear.
19. I had to subject the subject to a series of test.
20. How can I intimate this to my most intimate friend?

Let's face it - English is a crazy language. There is no egg in eggplant, nor ham in hamburger, neither apple or pine in pineapple. English muffins weren't invented in England or French fries n France. Sweetmeats are candies while sweetbreads, which aren't sweet, are meat. We take English for granted. But if we explore its paradoxes, we find that quicksand can work slowly, boxing rings are square and a guinea pig is neither from Guinea nor is it a pig.

And why is it that writers write fingers don't fing, grocers don't groce and hammers don't ham? If the plural of tooth is teeth, why isn't the plural of booth, beeth? One goose, two geese. So one moose, two meese? One index, 2 indices? Doesn't it seem crazy that you can make amends but not one amend? If you have a bunch of odds and ends and get rid of all but one of them, what do you call it?

If teachers thaught, why didn't preachers praught? If a vegetarian eats vegetables, what does a humanitarian eat? Sometimes I think all the English speakers should be committed to an asylum for the verbally insane. In what language do people recite at a play and play at a recital? Ship by truck and send cargo by ship? Have noses that run and feet that smell?

How can a slim chance and a fat chance be the same, while a wise man and a wise guy are opposites? You have to marvel at the unique lunacy of a language in which your house can burn up as it burns down, in which you fill in a form by filling it out and in which, an alarm goes off by going on.

English was invented by the people, not computers, and it reflects the creativity of the human race, which, of course, is not a race at all. That is why, when the stars are out, they are visible, but when the lights are out, they are invisible.

hehehehe... this is getting more crazy now.... those English language lovers will love this... here goes...

There is a two-letter word that perhaps has more meanings than any other two-letter word, and that is..... UP!

It's easy to understand UP, meaning toward the sky or at the top of the list, but when we awaken in the morning, why do we wake UP? At a meeting, why does a topic comes UP? Why do we speak UP and why are the officers UP for election and why is it UP to the secretary to write UP a report?

We call UP our friends, and we use it to brighten UP a room, polish UP the silver, we warm UP the leftovers and clean UP the kitchen. We lock UP the house and some guys fix UP the old car. At the other times the little word has real special meaning.

People stir UP trouble, line UP for tickets, work UP an appetite, and think UP excuses. To be dressed is one thing but to be dressed UP is special.

And this UP is confusing: A drain must be opened UP because it is stopped UP. We open UP a store in the morning but we close it UP at night.

We seem to be pretty mixed UP about UP! fuuh... To be knowledgeable about the proper uses of UP, look the word UP in the dictionary. In a desk-sized dictionary, it takes UP almost 1/4th the page and can add UP to about thirty definitions. If you are UP for it, you might try building UP a list of the many ways UP is used. It will take UP a lot of your time, but if you don't give UP, you may wind UP with a hundred or more. When it threatens to rain, we say it is clouding UP. When the sun comes out we say its clearing UP.

One could go on and on, but I'll wrap it UP! for now my time is UP so..... time for me to shut the hell UP coz I got a headache UP in my head! arrrghhh....

Only two things are infinite, the universe and human stupidity, and I’m not sure about the former. -Albert Einstein-

Thursday, January 14, 2010


Shocking news!! I was thinking WOW this Honda really gonna tie up with them?! Very daring move to take a insane hardcore rock band to link with their brand. Really power of dreams wei!

Then on the other side of my head. DAMN Slipknot kinda sell out, how can this band do this kind of things when they are the one preaching about being angry and being who they are. That was while the article was loading la. So many thoughts and videos running in my head on how the band members gonna look like in a picture or video driving the Honda Civic or accord with their mask and their suit on... somehow it just can't click. I was going overdrive in my head already. Then the article loaded... chehhhhhhh. it was the other Slipknot... the Malaysian version...

a Creative and Communication Agency... thank god! hahahah...

Btw they won the pitch to handle Honda's digital business by coming up with creative campaigns and their CSR project. Damn... am I still in touch with my advertising history... hehe. But the past is the past I am now in a radio.. blek!

Check out the concert and u will know why my mind went into overdrive... just imagine this guys in a Honda Ad...

*photos are just a parody.. no pun intended. Its merely a thought in my head... hehe

Friday, January 08, 2010


3 Churches is burned. Our Prime Minister condemning this doing. I am too! Cmon! we are moving towards a develop and civilised country and the last thing we need is our very own to start acting like this. I would like to quote Rocky's Bru's line "remember: Malaysia is not Egypt. And this is not Switzerland. We don't want to be Nigeria, Kenya, or Iraq."

We are moving towards the 1 Malaysia direction and the last thing we need is for someone to do things like this. Why cant we sit and talk like civilised people! why do we need blood spill everytime religion is brought into the picture? why do we need blood spill everytime we bring race into the picture? why cant we talk on the open ground where race and religion is put aside?

AND i would also like to condemn those that throws really really brutal racial remarks! If you hate it so much then leave the country! Oh you cant? then SHUT THE FUCK UP! and share and live in harmony with your brothers and sisters that we called Malaysians!

We are blessed with peace and harmony, socially and also naturally. Our country are blessed with no major natural disasters like earthquake, volcano, tornado, or tsunami. We are blessed with a lush natural resources. We are blessed with friends that is from different culture, religion and background. DO WE REALLY WANT TO THROW IT ALL AWAY?! Just because of a misunderstanding? or perhaps ill informed usage of a word?

GROW UP MALAYSIANS!!! and the people of the world!

I wish the world will live as one.... in the words of John Lennon "you may say i am a dreamer... but I not the only one..."

In the word of george carlin...

"Murder. The Fifth Commandment. But, if you give it a little thought, you realize that religion has never really had a problem with murder. Not really. More people have been killed in the name of God than for any other reason."

"To cite a few examples, just think about Irish history, the Middle East, the Crusades, the Inquisition, our own abortion-doctor killings and, yes, the World Trade Center to see how seriously religious people take Thou Shalt Not Kill. Apparently, to religious folks—especially the truly devout—murder is ne­gotiable. It just depends on who's doing the killing and who's getting killed."

-george carlin-

Love each other.... understand each other... LISTEN to each other... half of what started a fight is usually not listening properly on what the other has to say! sit down and talk!

I got a theory... nowadays there are so many pc games... wanna fight? cmon... get into the cyber cafe and kill all you want! the games are so real it feels satisfied! or go play a game of football or basketball! instead of going killing each other! ...


Thursday, January 07, 2010

GET RICH THE EASY WAY...yea rite...

Well was talking to my friend that day and we were basically talking and discussing on how some can be so damn freaking rich! so so damn freaking rich! how? then he told me an interesting formula... makes sense. All u need is hard work! real hard work! At first I think its bull! but after thinking awhile... it does make sense! I look at my uncle that opens a hawker stall at Alor Setar selling apam balik only. He can actually save his money and buy a house and a car!

So here goes... the get rich scheme! skim 'kurang cepat' jadi kaya! all you need is some time and lotsa walking around.

The formula is like that... so take 50sen (lets work on Ringgit Malaysia RM first) and buy a fairly good pen for that price. Then sell it for 1 Ringgit. Then with that 1 Ringgit you can now buy 2 pen. Then you go and sell then it goes on and on and on... for 20 cycles to reach the RM 1 million mark. The thing you have to think about it is that you have to sell 500,000 pens to reach that mark.

All you need is invest 50sen and buy a fairly good pen then sell to a person. Convince them then sell. 500,000 is not really that hard. For people its just small investment. RM1 for a good and nice pen. Anyone wouldn't mind!

All this is providing that you exclude food, transportation, entertainment and lodging la!

so... go buy urself one fairly or really good product and start selling! go go go! Just wondering when i should start wuahahahaha

"Wanna get rich or not? wanna get rich or not??!! wanna get rich then WORK la!!! hahaha think money fall from the sky ar?!"

"sikit, sikit, lama-lama jadi bukit" (A little a day, slowly one day it will be a hill)

Wednesday, January 06, 2010


I know every year one of the first few things I do is to look into the movie calendar and see what hits are coming out this year. Well last year was not a bad year. There are many memorable movies like Zombieland, Avatar, Star Trek, Inglorious Basterds, Aliens vs Monsters, GI Joe, Sherlock Holmes, and 2012. And there are also the so so ones that is cool but somehow disappointing like Transformers; Revenge of the Fallen (great actions but very very poor plot and flow), Terminator Salvation (too much expectation), Angels & Demons (prefer the book), District 9 and X-men Origins; Wolverine (just not satisfied). And the worse of the years like Street Fighter; Legend of Chun Li (Bad choice of casts!!! and freaking poor story line!!), Outlander (Beowulf??) and I love you Beth Cooper (why?? geeks are so easy to be picked on? boring la). Honestly I only watched this few movies a year...

Anyway lets hope that this year will be a good movie year.. lets see what movie can we expect. The most anticipated movie of course would be Iron Man 2

Only thing that is kinda disappointing is that Terence Howard wont reprise his role as Lt Col James Rhodes. But on the other hand... Don Cheadle took over. Kinda hate it when they change the cast for sequels... but then again wut the heck... it looks good.

Next, I am kinda blown away with this trailer... Clash of the Titans

Starring Sam Worthington (again)... whats with this fella.. up coming superstar eh? its basically clash of the GREEK mythology titans. Kinda cool... Zeus, Medusa, Perseus and Hades... what else u wan?!! Liam Neeson as Zeus hmmmm... Ralph Fiennes as Hades? hmmm... another Voldermort role? but the trailer looks stunning... looking forward to it..

Next is Robin Hood... well for me is more like Robin Hood Begins ahhaha... No its not like the Kevin Costner's one or the Cary Elwes ones.. This one tells about how Sir Robin of Loxley, Earl of Sir Robin of Loxley, Earl of Huntington became Robin Hood. But to cast Russell Crowe as Robin Hood... abit old for how Robin Hood begins.... hehe. But then again the Gladiator package is back Ridley Scott and Russel Crowe... should be a cool epic... Gladiator 2? hehe

Then this one I am looking forward but kinda skeptical... Prince of Persia... Kinda weird that they cast Jake Gyllenhaal a Swedish descent Jewish actor to play a Persian prince role... hmmm. But again... looks kinda interesting.

The animation of ... Shrek 4...ever after... wonder will it be good... the 2nd one was abit stale...

and Toy Story 3... 10 years after their last sequel...

Few other movies that looks interesting is A-Team. Those that grew up in the 80s and early 90s will know this series. But this time they made it into a movie and the cast is kinda interesting.

This is the old A-Team

But the new A-Team will consists of Liam Neeson as Hannibal, Badley Cooper as Face, Sharlto Copley as Murdock and Quinton Jackson as BA Baracus.

Then Johnny Depp as the Mad Hatter in Alice in Wonderland? hmmmmm... now that we look at it... the person who wrote Alice in Wonderland sounds like he/she was high on some drugs while writing this... really creepy.... then again... here is the trailer...

And last but not least is Gulliver's Travel... yes that old story we used to read and watch... starring Jack Black as Gulliver. hmmm interesting... other that all this movies... I hope this year will have many pleasant surprises like Zombieland, Sherlock Holmes and Star Trek.


Ever heard a ignorant comment so dumb that you just feel like slapping the person that said it there and then? Well... I have! alot of times! I just can't imagine how dumb or UNEXPOSED some people are! If you don't know anything then sometimes its just best to keep quiet! Don't la open your pine hole and speak everything out!

Take for example one of my colleague asked me after I told him that in Indonesia there are Chinese people, he gave me this stunned look. As if I told him that Godzilla is real! then he asked me "Bro, really??!! I thought all of them there are like the ones that come here to work....." .

Alot of people are living in a shelled community. They only wanna know what is among themselves or they don't take the initiative to listen and learn. I mean... cmon! Like some people thinks that all Japanese food are raw! or western food consists of Chicken Chop or Fish and Chips or ham and scramble eggs only!! Aiyo...

Some thinks that all the East Malaysians are like Malay. My gf is a Kadazan... and hey! have you seen Kadazan girls? fair and lovely!!! but ignorant people dont know... coz they don't take the initiative to find out. They think that East Malaysians looks like Indons or still live on trees.... come out of your shell la!

Don't say knowing about the world la... even our own country our own people dont know ourselves! So stop being ignorant and start to explore!

Sunday, January 03, 2010


Happy New Year!!! thats all..... wuehehehhehe... my new years resolution? is to make a resolution next year!!! yes oh yes!!!

Kinda find this quote from my fav comedian George Carlin good and funny.... here it is...

“The most unfair thing about life is the way it ends. I mean, life is tough. It takes up a lot of your time. What do you get at the end of it? A Death! What's that, a bonus? I think the life cycle is all backwards. You should die first, get it out of the way. Then you live in an old age home. You get kicked out when you're too young, you get a gold watch, you go to work. You work forty years until you're young enough to enjoy your retirement. You do drugs, alcohol, you party, you get ready for high school. You go to grade school, you become a kid, you play, you have no responsibilities, you become a little baby, you go back into the womb, you spend your last nine months floating...

...and you finish off as an orgasm.”

-george carlin-
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