Thursday, September 20, 2012

21 September...

Just 3 years ago I celebrated with him by going for a wonderful meal with my family at Kuala Selangor and a nice karaoke session after that. Now I am sitting here on the eve of his birthday knowing that I wont have that chance again. He was never a birthday person and me, my sis and my mom will buy a cake for him no matter what but his gleaming smile when he sees the cake ensures us that he is very happy with what we did for him. 

Well its been 2 years since but I still feel the loss... perhaps time heals but it wont heal all... 

Saturday, September 15, 2012


Come this Tuesday it will be the 42nd anniversary of the loss of one of if not the best guitarist ever lived, the great Jimi Hendrix. Over the past week I have been listening to his song over and over again and somehow it just seems so freaking awesome. The songs even though its almost half a century old, well some of his songs are already half a century old but it doesn't seem like it at all. That is how great this guy's music was!

One of my personal favourite is this piece, Bold As Love. Somehow listening to it I feel so happy yet so sad... it just gave me that surreal feeling especially the guitar solo part. Not a lot of songs can make me feel this way and only IF only I can get hold of a time machine and go back in time just to see him perform this live....

Just basking in his songs is just a surreal feeling... next is Purple Haze, 

and this one... Message of Love

and another of my fav, Little Wing

and this was the one that introduced me to him way back when I was a kid!

All Along the watchtower

This is a tribute post... to the great

1942 - 1970

"When the power of love overcomes the love of power, the world will know peace..."
- Jimi Hendrix-

Saturday, September 08, 2012

Just one of those weird days... with one of those weird posts

Have you ever encountered days when you feel like you have been nagged by people around on a non stop basis?

Have you encountered days when you feel like what ever you do throughout the day doesn't seem to be working and people are just disappointed in you?

Have you come across people that constantly think that what you do is not good yet what they do doesn't help either?

Have you come across a day when you just don't want to focus on a certain issue but somehow the issue keeps on coming up in front of you?

Well... that is happening to me recently. All in one go. Sometimes you feel like you are running so hard but you just cant reach your destination. Sometimes you just think, why is this happening? What is wrong with me? Why I just cant get things right today?

Positive mindset? perhaps that helps.

Have a good rest? perhaps that is what I need.

Have a good loving hug? definitely!

The last thing you need right now is somehow close to you blowing up in front of you and not understanding your situation. Thinking that you are being lazy or inconsiderate or just forgetful.

Everything you do that day is wrong and people around you that you care about just nag and nag and nag... and they seem to be irritated with what ever you do...

Doesn't one of those days really irritates you?

Sometimes you just suck it up and continue your journey. Sometimes the people nagging you dont even know that they are the ones that is the source of this. Sounds familiar? definitely!

But sometimes to avoid the situation getting shitty, its best to shut up! bite the bullet and move on...

Some people say, let it go bro! things will get better...

Well, I know it will, but at the time being, its just as irritating as having a very bad constipation where your stomach is aching and yet you cant shit! but once that shit is out.... its all well

This post sounds like I am angry with someone but...

I am not angry with anyone but I am angry with myself...

what a weird day!

sounds familiar? 

Friday, September 07, 2012


Its been quite a while since I wrote something patriotic. The last one came in March this year. (you can read it here). Well last week we celebrated our country's independence day or better known for locals MERDEKA! and with Hari Malaysia around the corner, if you dont know, Hari Malaysia is where our country is formed, from Malaya to Malaysia and welcoming our new family members of Sabah and Sarawak. I have noticed that Malaysians are getting angrier yet confused about being Malaysian compared to last year. 

Besides the political bantering between the opposition and the ruling government, I dont see why we as Malaysians can't be Malaysians. Suddenly because of politics we have now lost the passion and the patriotism? I hear people go like "This country is shits", "Fuck it la, might as well migrate". The country is fine my friends. Don't let politics make you not Malaysians. We as the people have the rights to choose and vote. In my previous article "We are Malaysia" I have stated that most of us that were born and bred here in Malaysia, have fully integrated the Malaysian mentality. You can never see other people from other nations sit and eat drink and speak the same lingo and food and laugh at the same thing. 

I have spoken to a wonderful writer last week. Her name is Ninotaziz (you can read her blog here), she wrote a book called Hikayat - from the ancient malay kingdoms. Talking to her she said that we as Malaysians should be so proud of our diverse culture and races. That is true, the government keep on saying that the diversity in our culture has to be cherished and it is said as if it is a current thing but according to Ninot, diversity begins way back in our countries ancient history. The days of Merong Mahawangsa, Parameswara and so on. Its the diversity and unity of our nation that makes us so unique and strong. Our cultures have been integrated so much that non of our culture are purely from our so called origin. Its a Malaya or Malaysia thing. 

Did you know that a lot of things practised by different religion or races in our country is not really practised other place or not practised anymore? Some of our culture have been integrated so much that its a Malaysian thing. I have just been to my friends Indian wedding and guess what I saw? A Chinese "Yum Seng" session. Hari Raya aidilfitri's duit raya or "green pow" or Deepavali's "purple pows" is very similar to Chinese New year "Ang pows". During my recent Chinese new year, my uncle prepared Nasi Kandar for us for our reunion meal. Malays speaking mandarin, chinese speaking tamil, indian speaking hokkien and everyone speaks Bahasa Malaysia. Not intergrated? 

Lets put aside our differences to celebrate our differences! got it? Its like forming a really good alloy metal. Different materials mixed together to create a strong bond and strong and lasting metal.

Like I mentioned in my previous blog, let me mention it again, race is something we do on tracks and not skin colours. If the country got a problem FIX IT and not RUN AWAY FROM IT!




If only we have no law... well I am not saying that we go into the world of anarchy and chaos. Nah, I dont want that! but if only there is no law for certain areas. I think alot of snatch thieves and robbers would be dead by now. Rapist will be impaled and mat rempits will be road kill (not that they are not now also), child abusers will be brutally abused in return and people that does harm to animals will be treated the same in return... isnt that better?

Why do I say so? If you look at the news recently, do you realise that there are so many fucked up things happening and the culprit just walks away with just a small "slap" of fine to their hands? 

One very obvious news is this, rapist admits his wrong doing for raping a kid and gets away with it? read it here and here. On one hand we say we want to protect our kids from harm but on the other hand we let this guys go free? and to top that off "THEY FUCKING ADMIT THEIR WRONG!!!!". Repent? these are the rules that should not ever ever be forgiven. It is due to this rules that this is the third time this kind of thing happened in recent time. I am pretty sure that there are even more of these cases but not blown out to the media or press. 

So again, are the rules or laws helping us or going against us? 

Why am I saying this? Its because of the inconsistencies of the rules being applied throughout all sentences. Some cases that most people look at as light offences are given really harsh sentences. Some deserve harsh sentences are set free. Is there a consistency in making a judgement? Do they have a certain SOP? I know every case is different even though is under the same category but how far different can it be? If you rape someone, isnt that the same? moreover raping an underage person. Isnt that even worse?! 

Lets just look at other cases, like this one (click here and here). Story was, she her bag was snatched from her car as she was closing her gate and when they took her bag from her car. She got in her car and chased them and that resulting to she ramming into them killing one of the thief. She did what normal people do which a reflex to defend and take back their belonging. Snatch thief have so rampant that even the police can't do anything about it as it is very random. But when we take actions to our own hands, and shit like what happened to this women here counted as a crime itself? Is she wrong?

I am not pointing fingers at anyone particularly but just the problems arising. Our country is ranked as one of the safest country in South East Asia still baffles me. (read here) But recent times a report saying that the data given was altered? (read here and here). Is it true? from the people's stand point I kinda believe it is true. Look at it this way, crime rate have been on the rise lately. Look back 10 - 15 years ago, I still can walk around at night not really worried of being robbed or snatched. Now?! Walking in front of a quite proper shopping centres such as The Curve and 1 Utama gives you the creepers. Heck walking in the car park gives you the creepers. Every single sound that breaks the silence scares the shit out of you. You have to be on a constant lookout and worse off seeing how security guards uphold their "duty" with "integrity" and "honour" scares me even more.

Citizens have now taken things to their own hands, the first step, gated community. We see this more and more of this scene (pictured below) especially in the Klang Valley.

Photos taken from

This is because the people are just so tired of being robbed over and over again and not to mention the safety of their wives, children and belongings. Have we come to this stage? I can't remember who told me this, I think it a lecturer of mine. He said that doesn't this gated community scene reminds us of the time when our country is in the state of emergency? when the curfew was implemented.

Photos taken from 

But the story is, we are looking for security. OK thats fine! but doing it by hiring foreign workers who come here to earn money. Are you sure? Are they willing to give their lives to make sure these richer people are safe? sure or not? Look at this article, it comes with a video. This might happen to you also, coz the guard are just doing their job and that is taking care of the area that they have to. Other than that, they will say "what for? you pay me so little, you think I risk my life for you ka?". That is true! we pay them RM500 and expecting them to put their life on the line? you gotta be kidding me man.

If you are interested there is an article of a research on the implications of gated community here and how much a low paying guard will help you here.

So the question again, are the law protecting us? or do we need to protect ourselves? If we protect ourselves does the law allows that too? What are the limits when it comes to protect ourselves?

For me, just be vigilant and be very very careful when going anywhere alone. Because in reality, we cant do what we see in the movies where we go on a rampage with guns blazing killing the "bad guys" anytime anywhere Expendables style. That is because we have to abide by the RULES and REGULATION in the SAFE country of ours that is FREE from OPPRESSION and COLONISATION...
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